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Another mid night nervous breakdown

What even is life if one doesn’t have mobility, range of motion, or the energy to deal with the lack? 

I’m a hyper person. Not moving around gives me anxiety. Not being able to move around – let’s just say these days the anxiety cradles a nice bit of impotent rage. 

Somehow I’m supposed to [insert chronic pain/injury/illness cheerleader axiom]. I think those sayings come from people who

  1. Are not in chronic pain
  2. Have never had to deal with chronic pain
  3. Have forgotten what their chronic pain situation was like and now feel entitled to tell people how to live

or any other variety of reasons I don’t care about thinking of anymore. 

I’m tired. I want this to be over. I want to have a life again. I command thee to commence the patching up sequence, Universe. For an injury that was supposed to heal in six to eight weeks, forty weeks is way overdue. 

2 responses to “Another mid night nervous breakdown”

  1. achronicpainlife

    I’m totally with you here and feel your pain. It’s absolute torture being so sedentary and in so much pain – especially as you say when being such a hyper person before. The anxiety felt is awful and the future is daunting. We’re in this together, you’re not alone. Stay strong… Much love…

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    1. Renee Parfait

      I appreciate your support. It means a lot. I like what you said about trying to put less trash in your body. I’m trying to do the same, but it’s another hard road. Much love right back atcha 🙂

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