I. am. tired. of being sick and tired

I don’t need:

• to be told to do better when I can’t function even halfway properly
• to be treated like a circus curiosity regarding “what’s wrong with me”
• to be told I will turn into an addict if I take certain medications 
• to be told to sit down when I defend myself

Who the hell am I kidding. 

It’s excellent how people who have attained some kind of stability via none of their own virtue (or conversely, via “self-made with no support network, luck, or privilege at all” means) can lecture about personal responsibility. It’s not at all demoralising. Ooh, similarly, I love being judged by people who self-hate with a consistent frequency. It’s kinda like being yelled at by a rotten orange for being perceived as an overripe mango, when you’re actually a strawberry still attached to the plant. 

Or maybe these are pain fog circles to be left too loosely scrutinised and oh hi medication that’s surprisingly working these last thirty seconds.