Why is today, today?

I couldn’t sleep last night.

I got up at 0800 and drove an hour to my 1015 appointment that is tomorrow.

My foot hurts more than usual.

There weren’t any motorised carts at the big box store.

There weren’t any bolster pillows at the big box store.

How am I supposed to do for myself if a short walk, or a short car ride, wear me out?

If I take a nap now, I won’t be able to sleep tonight.

I have to drive an hour out of my way to get done what I want to get done tomorrow.

If these painkillers are just going to sedate me enough to not care if it hurts – which is about two steps past the point of not being able to function – what is the motherfucking point?